After I published my last post, I was anxious that I would offend you. Or make you mad at me. And then I felt guilty. About being so judgy. And calling you out on your judgment issues too.
Which is silly, because if we are honest, we all judge. Even though we shouldn’t. We are HUMAN after all. But let’s get this straight. I am super human because I judge people. Alot.
I’m running on an empty grace tank today. Pray for me.
I tell myself, okay, grace grace, God’s grace and then wham, there I go judging again.
The height of someone’s heels at church. The length of shirt (or lack thereof) worn with leggings. The low-cut nature of a blouse, at CHURCH of all places. My word. Modesty people! Have they heard of layering? *ahem, I digress*
I am a superficial judger. I take immediate note on what is going on visually and make snap judgments. Shame on me, I know. I’m horrible. The reality is, I don’t do it all the time. But I seem to be doing it a lot lately.
When I’m tired and overwhelmed I turn into a judging monster.
Which is probably not so good for you, if you’ve run into me lately. I’ve judged you. (sorry)
Life is always crazy, right? Topping off the normal life stress of the week, our kitchen had a little mini flood. It could have been worse. Thanks to a dear friend with mad handyman skills, we avoided a flooded basement. Praise the Lord for people God puts in our lives to care for us, even about plumbing issues! I have also been grieving the loss of our beloved fur baby, Squeaky. She was with us one month shy of 12 years, and who knew the house would be so empty? Stupid animal cancer. Her purrs and snuggles have been embedded straight into the recesses of my heart. And missing that hurts sometimes.
So my grace meter is running on empty lately. But we are all overwhelmed and stressed out to some degree. That doesn’t give us an excuse or the right to let the judgment monster rule our lives! And based on the overwhelming amount of emails and notes from blog readers last week, I’d say y’all agree.
When we are tired, overwhelmed and just plain over the little things of life, all we can do is hold onto the big things and try to get through the day. In those moments, it seems like our grace tank is empty and the meter has flown right out the window.
Until I’m reminded that HIS grace is sufficient for me. That I am made strong thru HIM in my weakness.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.’ – 2 Corinthians 12:9
Sometimes I feel like my ability to extend grace is directly tied to the amount of sleep I get at night, or the milligrams of caffeine coursing through my veins, or the amount of crazy that might be running through my head.
Grace is not contingent on our power and strength.
I’m hoping if your grace meter is running on low, or you have let that judgment monster have free reign in your life lately, that maybe we could take some time today and pray for each other?
It is only thru the Giver of Grace that our tank can be filled to overflowing, even in our most caffeine and sleep deprived moments.
Let’s remember WHO fills up our grace tank. Let’s look to Him for an abundance in our weakest moments, to show His great and mighty strength. We can do it. All we need is a little caffeine and a whole lot of prayer!